A letter to my younger self ...

I came across the book "Dear Me: A letter to my sixteen year old self" .. and I found it to be very interesting. I decided to do a similar task, but it wasn't to write a letter to my 16 year old self, but my 27 year old self, and hence write a letter to my self from a decade ago, mainly as most of my understanding and growth has come in this past decade if anything!

If truth be told this blog post has taken a lot out of me and I have cried while writing this. It's not sadness per say - but a release, an acknowledgment, and yet also a deep loving hug to that younger self who - if i look back - was so alone. I have taken on this task for two reasons. 1) to kind of bring up anything from the past that I have not acknowledged and requires healing and 2) to create a sense of release to anything that I may subconsciously be holding on to, that is therefore holding me back. Anyway here goes.

My dearest younger self of August 2007,

I am writing to you from the year 2017 (September) - so a very long time away from where you are in 2007 and where you will get to. If truth be told you will be at the most authentic and happiest, because - by the year 2017 - you will be living life to your own T&Cs and to what makes you human. Frankly you will get to a point in your 30's where you will realise that if you don't live for yourself then you will die living an un-lived life and if that is the case, then what is the point of existence?

In those moments where you will feel the lowest, go within. Please. Nothing on the outside will heal you, it must and will come from your own source and power. The year I am referring to is 2009. You will put this off for about 3 years, but a voice within - in the year 2010 - will guide you to the first source of healing (introduction to Reiki) and from then, if there is any advice I can give you, is that don't get too analytical with yourself, and trust the feelings. 2013 will be better, 2014 a stepping stone, 2015 the bridge, 2016, you'll walk your talk, and then I bring you to 2017!

There is so much to tell you about what is to conspire over the coming years. I haven't spoken about 2007 to 2009 because I feel I don't need to do that. In summary its going to be rough and amazing. The saying is true. With the extreme highs come the deepest lows. But the highs will be worth it. TRUST ME. The Ying and Yang of life will play out in a way that you never could have imagined. But I assure you, you will rise out stronger on the other side. At times it won't feel like that.

So over the next 10 years:

• You will question what it means to be YOU:

• When I say this, I mean the "authentic" you, and not what society (or even family) tell you

• That you do NOT need to be like the others - in every sense (in the professional and personal world!)

• Your GUT instinct is NEVER wrong. Even at this moment in time you have the awareness, but you will question yourself.

• DEPRESSION - yes, and there is no shame in admitting that heartbreak will take you to the brink of - contemplating - suicide. Please speak to someone sooner if you want to not be dwelling for much longer than you need to.

• But I assure you that you will rise from the ashes, and I couldn't love and respect you more than I do TODAY.

• If there is one thing I strongly advise is don't lose your health in the midst of this chaotic time. And even if you do - understand that EXERCISE will get you to rise quicker out of the depths of depression. Those endorphins are a must!

• It's important that you get (back) into your body. You will realise this strongly in 2015 but it might take you a few years to put this into practice.

• You will gravitate towards Reiki and self-healing on many occasions and you will resist this too - DO THIS SOONER rather than later

• If NO ONE else understands the way you are - IT DOES NOT MATTER - because there will come a time when it will not matter. You will sing to tune of your own music.

• Trust your FIRST instincts about people. That will come to play a lot between 2011/2014. And it's ok to let people fade out of your life, especially when there is no vibrational resonance. Some people are not meant to be part of your Journey. Again just continue to be true to your authenticity.

• Get blogging sooner! You will always question whether you can write or not. We all have different writing styles, again, be true to you!

• A word I want to introduce to you is "UNTAG," this will make much more sense in time.

• What I ask is that you continue to question reality, continue to question love, kindness, compassion, and what it means to live a human life. BUT especially keep questioning what does it mean for you to be you.

• Bring palmistry to the world sooner, because yes you are that good! Stop questioning this. If you must for the point of society get the accreditation, then go and do that.

• You will get through that shit storm of 2009-2012.

Lastly, you will enjoy your 30's A LOT more than the 20's. Yes the first part might be low, but it gets better! AND I am sure it'll get even better from here on in.

If the world never comes to understand you, then that's their loss, at this moment in time all I ask you is to TRUST and follow that stubborn heart of yours. It WON'T FAIL YOU. I PROMISE YOU.

Lots of love from the older, and I think, the wiser you!

Wow! OK .... I strongly recommend that you do such a task! It's therapeutical. I am sure I will still be processing this task for a few more days / weeks. And I guess it's no coincidences that I am posting this on the day of the new Full Moon!

Until next time, my words to you are: keep being you!